FrUst!!!!

Hey guys~ 

Sorry did't update my blog this few weeks~

Busy for SPM~

Anyway, as u all can see the title "FRUST"..

Well, im kinda dissapointed with my best friend..

Whom i really adore~ 

I think its better if i did't mention her name~

U know why?

Da 2nd day of my most important exams,

i decided to move out from the borders which i stays 

to make me easier went to school cos its near..

I got some issues with my friends back at borders..

Actually we were fine, had no problem~

but i think God gve a chance to see how's world like~

There's a night, when i feel tired after studying,

i went to bed early,

there i overheard them talking bout me~

Maybe other ppl point of view would say : "Hey girl, chill out, its normal~! Don't take it hard on you.. That's just girls talks" ... First i just ignored wat they talk and kept the anger beneath me~

Unfortunately.., there's one night that i really can't stand with them~

Gosh~! They were like a pain in my neck!

There i try be nice on them~ I meet Sr. Liza and Sr.Marysia for counselling~

They asked me to be patient.. and so i did it..

I were like : "Hey natalie, how long u want to keep on silent!? They did't like you here!"

I called my bro and asked for advise, he told me to move out from the borders bcoz his afraid that im stressing out and would affect my study..and it would trouble my friends,.. The last thing that i did't want to do is trouble my friend..mostly for her, bcos she already did good things for me.. Which makes me really happy having her by my side.. but now everything turns upside down.. 

I just pretend that i never heard them talk behind me and that really hurt me badly..

Then my mum called me, she said that my brother told her everything and she asked me whether i want to move out..

I did't say no nor yes~

I just turn off my phone~

Whole day i kept silents and keep on thinking what should i do~\

Then i said to myself: "Hey nath! Its just a small matter, don't think it too much, chill out or you'll get a headache and ur asthma would come!"

Then i heard from one of them that they actually did't like me..

What's wrong with me??

Why u all hate me?

did i done something wrong?

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The Next day ( The day i moved out)

after exam, we went back to borders.., when we lunch together, they both were silent~

maybe they tired~ 

So i ignored them~

After washing my clothes, i went to the study room to take my book and study in the bedroom, they still gve a silent treatment.. "When i'm trying to gve them a paper which our history teacher gve us to copy..

they did't manage to get one..

before i start a conversation, they talked to each other.. they asking their other friends to gve them the notes that the teacher gve us.. 

I tot they already hve so i walked out from the study room and there was a loud laugh and it was from them..

I just ignored them, doing my own things..

then my brother call, he asked me to move out the borders immediately..

I said i did't want to but he said it was for my own good~

We had a huge fight and tears drop down my cheeks..

i gve up~ I decided to follow my brothers advise.. both my brothers said they will asked mum to pick me up at six~

before i manage to talk, my roommate enters the room.. she wants to sleep,

i then quickly walk out from the room~ went to the study room ( empty).. pack all my books..

clean up my table and call Sr Liza to asked her permission to leave the borders..

She called me said that she kinda busy, she'll meet me at 4~ so i wait her..

while waiting her.. im trying to figure out how i would say to my friends but when i heard their laughter,

it was obvious they were happy and better off without me~

Then Sr. Liza called me, asked me to meet her..

there i goes, she asked me what's wrong.. but before i could say, i cry in front of her..

all i could do is cry that time and she try to comfort me,

at first she tot i was sick, then she realize that i was hurt once again and she knew this time can't able to 

cover it any longer..

I pour everything to her and after i finished, she really sorry and kinda dissapointed because i did't told her the truth before..

She asked me to consider it but i said no~

She then advise me to stay focus on my study and i can come visit them everytime..

She then hug me and that was the hug that warm my heart and cure the wound that i bare all this time~

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I then went back to my room and pack all my things~

While i waiting for my mum, i meet Kak Yan, aunt mag and wana to say goodbye..

Hard for me to say but i glad i did it~

my mum come and we took all the bags and before i close the door, i could heard them laughing~

i close the door and walk away~